Bye Bye ZipCar

In July, after a couple months of struggling with two kids in the city we finally got a car.

It had been a long time comin'...

I definitely did my fair share of trains and cabs with carriers and strollers and all the rest of it. 

But I never canceled my ZipCar.

Since the last thing I need is another extraneous expense, I cancelled ZipCar last weekend.

It was bittersweet, but it felt good to finally make a decision around something.  I am usually indecisive, and when I found myself going into the "Well maybe I'll need it… if I…"  I stopped myself and said "You have a car.  It's a waste".

Sure, these may seem like silly discussions for people who don't keep everything in site or hold onto all parts of their past, but as I try to get out of these habits, I have to be very conscious of them.

Hoarding sounds like a dirty word… it sort of is, but what is behind it is often dirtier.

So canceling ZipCar is more than what it seems.

It is my letting go of something I do not need.

Our move brought that up for me, time and time again  Why was I holding onto this… I'll never use this broken […] or this old […] so why keep it..?

It is a process, but the new home has been the key to unlocking these bad habits and letting them go.

I am ready to let go. 

What do you hold on to?  
How did you let it go?

First Day at a Fresh Start

Tuesday was my first day alone with the kids in the new apartment.

My mom was here from Detroit for what was supposed to be a week and what turned into a month and now we are basically settled.

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I have been dreaming of this apartment for a few years and being here is one of those feelings where one wants to make the best of it.  

I don't want to spoil this situation.

I finally have the office I have been striving for and my children have a real playroom which doubles as my daughter's room or vice versa.

The more I am here, the more I realize the physical depression we were living in.

The first major change is light.  The new apartment is sun-drenched, and with this light I find myself physically renewed to start each day with nothing but productivity.  

So far that has meant keeping up with cleaning, but it is something that I enjoy here! 

I am also finally committed to dealing with my life as a pack-rat...hoarder...or whatever term you might use for someone with a lot of stuff.  To date, in our new home, I have donated bags and bags of goods, clothing, etc... and all I can say is how good it feels to be rid of things I have been carrying around since high school at least. 

I hope to encourage others to let go as well or to explore why they might be holding on to un-needed things through my own examination.

This will likely reveal many layers that I have been covering over the past decade at least.

As always, Thank You for reading and following along, no matter how much time has elapsed.